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What do we do when we keep getting clobbered by bad news?
Find our way back to thriving.
This week, I’m continuing my survival guide to pulling a little hope from tough times. Hopefully, you don’t need it, unless, of course, you made the mistake of listening to the latest report on Global Warming or what’s happening at the border with Mexico.
Topping my list of things-I-didn’t-ask-for-and-didn’t-want this week was Monday’s emergency root canal and the death of a favorite cousin. Plus all the national and international news.
I’ve also been questioning my authority to write about thriving creatively in the second half of life, while my list of woes keeps accreting with medical and health issues, financial concerns, the loss of a beloved, and even letting go of plans to adopt a dog I had been counting on.
Maybe this week’s episode of the Survival Guide should be called Thriving is Not What You Think.
Raw and a bit crumpled, I’m wondering how I can have any legitimacy to talk about thriving. But this has been the perfect time to explore how we keep going when we feel broken, so maybe I still have something to talk about. I figure there might be a few others out there whose lives are rich, complex, and full of stuff not chosen.
It’s one thing to thrive when everything is going great, or an affirmation or two can turn things around. But challenges will come with life after 50 (or living in general), and we know better than to think that we can varnish over them.
Don’t believe the well-packaged books, posts, and articles being marketed with titles like Do This One Thing and Your Life Will Be Instantly Wonderful. Yes, they’re tempting. (Disclaimer: I occasionally read this stuff.) But, even as I unconsciously take the bait and click on the tempting tidbit flashing over the Internet with a sexy, pseudo-solution, I know it’s a sham. After the headline, “clickbait” is always boring.
Moreover, the one-stop solution feels disrespectful of those of us who know it ain’t that easy.
Finding a way back to thriving.
I decided to notice, on root canal day, what kept me going.
When you’re feeling raw or broken, the good stuff stands out. Maybe the darkness makes the light brighter. (Forgive me if that sounds like a bumper sticker.) With my customary, entitled belief that things should go my way worn off, I started noticing lots of small things that were, in fact, working for me. I found hints of delight.
The day of my root canal was brilliantly sunny, and I enjoyed a spectacular view of Mt. Rainier on the way to the endodontist. The “C” bus that I needed to catch came promptly. A brisk walk to her office gave me some exercise, and the warm greeting from the receptionist felt genuine. Throughout the visit, I experienced respect and compassion. The endodontist, whom I fell in love with as much as you can love working with a dentist, soothed me as she gently touched my arm. Beautiful music distracted me from the procedure (thanks Pandora Radio)–the nitrous oxide helped me relax into a semi-comatose state where every song seemed spectacular.
Returning home, I needed to run to catch a bus and discovered that my knees, ankles, and back could still pull as a team. Back on the island, my husband was waiting for me on the street with an open-hearted smile. A friend who was also in pain called to ask me a question. I was buoyed by an opportunity to help another.
Each small step was a grace.
I discovered that life is never all one way…all happy or all sad, all dark or all light.
I can’t pretend that everything that happens to us is good. The fact that my cousin struggled with early onset dementia for twenty years, knowing that she would eventually die of the same condition that had killed her mother, was tragic. Yet in her life and death, there were many miracles: her resilience and hope, her peaceful death, the way cousins are reconnecting around her departure.
Within everything, we can find enough good to keep us going.
I won’t call the pain, hassle, and expense of a root canal good. Yet my day contained so much good within it, that I discovered that I was, indeed, thriving.
True, it broke my heart to not be able to adopt the dog I had been counting on; yet along the way I experienced a new friendship and generous, caring support from the dog’s current foster Mom. The heartfelt, compassionate back-up from the animal-loving friends to whom I reached out for guidance, touched me deeply.
Etty Hillesum, whose writings about life during the Holocaust have inspired me so much, wrote about the touches of beauty she discovered in her horrific surroundings, like how the sun bounced off the walls of the concentration camp or how a flower could grow in the broken concrete.
All is not good. But we can always discover the good that is waiting to be noticed.
My list of saving graces is full of items that are small and, seemingly, insignificant, like being able to run a few blocks. On my “Life-is-working-aren’t-I-great-days” I can forget to appreciate these small things. On my bad days, they are the gifts that bring me back to life.
The days when life drops us to our knees are the days when we may look down to find the flower in the concrete.
People come together in remarkable ways after the worst tragedies, like the recent fires in Paradise, California. Small acts don’t bring a burned home back; they bring back hope.
When we get raw, we get real; we drop some of the masks we carry that separate us from life.
My book is taking a new direction. I don’t need to be a cheerleader for “Isn’t it great to thrive after 50?” Rather, I can say, “Stuff is going to happen, but we can still find our way to thriving.” A bit of depression, a period of brokenness, or a calamity or two don’t banish us from experiencing the small wonders of life. At times, they may even be enhanced.
That’s how we will continue to thrive. We don’t have to force fit life into an ideal reality.
We follow its flow and discover what is ideal within the reality we have.
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9 Responses
Wonderful.
I liked the way you honestly described your status on the day of your root canal.
Thank you so much for sharing the totality of that day.
I particularly liked your following sentence.
“Returning home, I needed to run to catch a bus and discovered that my knees, ankles, and back could still pull as a team. ”
Keep generating hope in self and others
Thanks Ravi!
Beautifully written and inspiring, thanks Sally. So sorry to hear about the root canal and adoption fall-through. And appreciate the orienting towards gratitude and equanimity. It’s going to be a great book!
Thank you Claire.
Thank you for another thoughtful posting Sally and it resonates for me to live in and appreciate what is happening in the moment. I can brood a bit and I’m getting better at not worring about the past I cannot change and the future I cannot always control. I can, however, enjoy the moment in front of me and get the most out of it. Then, maybe I can influence the future to be the best it can be.
Thanks Muffy for your thoughtful reflection! Yes, to being able to be in the moment– something I’m better at some times than others.
Sally–I enjoyed reading your thoughts and agree wholeheartedly that we need to embrace and find joy in all the little things that are beautiful and joyous each day. Thank you.
Spot on, Sally!! Your words echo and expand on some that I just read in a little book I picked up at Granny’s last week. Those words were: “Today take some moments to decide what you want your “every day” to include. Repeat every day forever.” In your piece you’ve taken that thought and made it big enough to hold the hard times as well as the easier ones and acknowledge that both are potentially part of every day, that we can, if we are willing to do the work, find gems in even the biggest junk pile of a day. Thanks so much and keep up the good work.
Thank you Mary. Great that you could find gold at Granny’s!