Next week, Iโm teaching about conflict ย – in a fun class where we’ll play with improv tools that shouldย make it easier to haveย difficult conversations. But wouldnโt you know it, as I worked on the plan for the evening, Iย prepared myself by having a HUGE conflict: explosive, and very emotional.
Believe me, it made me humble about thinking that I hadย answers about how to navigate throughย stormy conversations. Instead, I’m left with more questions.
Like so many of my clients, I want to back away from conflict when thereโs a risk that it can turn uncontrollably emotional.
And conflict and deep emotion often go together.
So a question Iโve been pondering is how to take the heat of strong emotionsย when theyย start to rage around me like a wildfire?
I didnโt find the magic bullet that solved the conflict I mentioned above. (If you have a magic bullet let me know!) There may be monks, mystics and yogis who have mastered the art of detachment in the midst of emotional pain, but I havenโt. For now, said relationship is regrettably broken, although Iโll keep hoping that it may someday repair.
But tough conflict can bring deep learning.
The silver lining fromย the event was insight – fresh ideas to try the next time I find myself in a conflict that turnsย whacky and veryย emotional.
Like animals, we’re still programmed forย fight or flight.
Animals are pretty direct. When my mare is really threatened, she doesn’t hide it. She lets me know: โIโm outtaย here.โ She runs for escape, breaks through a fence or puts her hooves up in the air.
Humans try to be more subtle. We donโt run flying out of meetings even when we’re feeling outraged. We try to be professional and hide our big emotional reactions. But deep in our guts, the desire to fight or fly may still beย stirring.
And, lacking hooves, we pull out the tools we have: we attack our adversary; we try to control; we manipulate; we capitulate.ย And occasionally, we dream of vengeance.
Now, you may be thinking, “not me” โ but trust me, I think even mild mannered professionals, when deeply hurt, can have thoughts of revenge. (I can!)
Unexamined rage is how we start wars that last for decades.
Science teaches us about mirror neurons โ the responses within our brains that trigger a smile when we see a smile. Unfortunately, the same mirroring must be true of expressions of rage.ย When Iโm attacked with anger, I want to vomit the same bile back at my aggressor. (If some kook gives me the finger on the highway, my own finger starts automatically shooting up in the airโฆ.how uncool is that???)
Itโs not my higher side. But imagine someone raging and blaming you with zero tolerance for understanding.
What would you do?
Hereโs what I discovered:
Step # 1: Breathe.
Breathing is always good. It slows us down, stops the knee-jerk reactivity and helps the brain begin to focus.ย Along those lines, noticing our body, our setting, and anything else that keeps us in the here and now, can help us feel more present and less at the effect of an emotional maelstrom.
Step # 2: Take a break.
Sometimes the flight response is not a bad thing, especially during a difficult conversation, when you can feel the emotional heat starting to flame.ย Call โtime out,โ take a breath, and propose to talk later. Hopefully, this will allow those โout of controlโ emotions to subside a little and then let the brain kick in (a really good step when youโre on the verge of saying something that you really shouldnโt โ something that might feel superficially delicious and sting you for days or years).
A break is also good when you feel the conversation is getting abusive or sliding into a blame attack.
Step # 3.ย Donโt blame.
Blame is so tempting (and I am guilty of indulging a bit), but blame stops inquiry. When weโre being attacked, blamingย sends us down the victim road. ย “Map the contribution” of both parties writes Douglas Stone and his collaborators in Difficult Conversations: How to Discuss What Matters Most, aย book that I have found extremely useful in untangling conflicts. I figured both I andย my partner in conflict had contributed, so I acknowledged my role and apologized. I really hoped that saidย partner would acknowledge the role they had played.ย (Sorry about the awful syntax โ Iโm avoiding gender specificity!)ย Alas, no dice.
The hardest times for me came at 3 the next morning, when my more rational mind was sleeping and I awoke in a fit of righteous blaming, plotting what I was going to say next.ย Fortunately, I eventually went back to sleep.
Step # 4. Feel the emotion.ย Feel the pain.
This may be the hardest part for me.ย I donโt like to feel anger, rage, loss, frustration, hopelessness, or whatever may come up in a conflict. Iโm tempted to lash out, as though it would be cathartic and help me avoid feeling my own pain.
Or, I can make the more difficult choice and look at where a conflict may have reminded me of something and triggered past pain. When something really upsets me, it can tap into an aquifer of deep feeling that may have run underground for days, months, years or generations. ย And thisย can feel overwhelming.
I remember a saying I heard: โYouโre never really upset about the thing you think you are upset about.โ
I think itโs probably true.
Step # 5.ย They arenโt responsible for your emotions.
After step # 4, itโs easier to see that while a partner-in-conflict may have done something that seemed wrong, unmerited or just plain awful, my emotional response is still my emotional response.
When I can sit with my own emotional response, and past pain, thereโs a possibility of healing or at least loosening the grip of past trauma on the current situation.
I hope.
Step # 6.ย You arenโt responsible for their emotions.
I do not like to cause hurt โ and I donโt like to see people hurting. Even in battle, I may want to rush in and try and fix my opponent’sย pain. But while I can take responsibility for my part of the problem, I can listen, and I can show empathy, I canโt fix someone else’sย emotions.
Bummer.
Step # 7. Embrace compassion, let go, and leave the door open.
As much as I HATE to admit it, I have found that there are some conflicts that wonโt be healed or corrected, at least notย in the short run. Maybe the wounds are too deep. I can still find a place of compassion for my conflict-partner, do whatever I know to do and if he or sheย isn’t responsive, let go.
Maybe letting go is the second hardest step. In the end, I may never know what the conflict was really about or why it happened when it did.
Occasionally, time does heal, and I have come back into relationship with someone months or years after a conflict.
So, I figure it never hurts to leave the door open.
Now, itโs your turn. What do you do to avoid getting scorched when the emotional flames are getting higher?
I’ll never forget the first time someone told me, “Breathe, Mary.” That was you, 22 years ago. It was my first awareness of my chronic breath-holding, revelatory at the time, and which I’ve been working on ever since. Thanks for putting me on that path!
Mary, you’re bringing back some wonderful memories that I’d tucked into the past. Leadership and breathing do go together! I’m sure with your drumming that you’re a master breather now!
Mary – I’m a drummer too. African-inspired, California grown originally. Now African-inspired, locally grown I suppose since we transplanted ourselves to Washington 10 years ago. Love drumming and African-insired drum circles as a metaphor in team building and relationship lessons. Hope our paths cross in person one of these days. Laura
Wonderful piece, Sally. You pretty much nailed it! The only thing I have to add is my gratitude for sharing your wisdom.
Thanks Mary – I appreciate your words!
Such a helpuf (and coincidentally timely) bit of wisdoms! Thank you.
Two thoughts:
1) in breathing, it’s counter-intuitive, but start with a deep exhale to “set up” the next inhale. It changes the blood gases so their on your side and empties your lungs to prepare them for the new oxygenation.
2) regarding the “time out”: plan my script in advance for a generic, all purpose, non confronting language and style, so I have some tools to craft a unique response in the moment. Something like “I need a time out and I’d like to come back to this later to hear more about what you think” doesn’t blame, focuses on thinking (not the fleeting feelings of rage) and hopefully keeps the door open. These kinds of scripts would be great to develop and try out in your improv class. Hope I can come.
Thanks again.
Laura these are excellent adds – and I think it’s a great suggestion to plan a script in advance! Thank you!
Laura, I really like your idea of having a one-liner prepared for those times when we find ourselves in conflict. One of the hardest things for me is how to react without having to react on the spot (ie before I know how I want to respond). I will put this ‘script’ on the wall and refresh my memory periodically.
One thing thing that I strive to do – I’m getting better, but not remembering early enough in conflict – is to acknowledge what the other person’s intent might be. It could be wanting to save face, wanting a thank you for a good job, or knowing that they are the one who will be blamed when things go wrong, or simply self-preservation triggered by an old emotional wound. My next step – when I am able to brink in this thinking early enough – will be to acknowledge the other person’s intent in some way, without second-guessing that intent (in case I get it wrong, thus fanning the fire even further).
Great topic for a conversation, Sally!
Ellia- I love it… especially addressing the intent without second-guessing. This is so challenging that I suspect it would also engage me cognitively and help to nudge me out of fight or flight. Thanks! Laura
Thanks for the comments, Sally and Laura! It’s sooo good to get feedback on what resonates with other people. As I re-build my consulting practice, it’s valuable to know what tools have potential ๐
Ellia – another great add – bringing in the importance of acknowledging intent. There was a piece in Difficult Conversations I think – where the authors talk about how easy it is to remember OUR positive intent (that contributed to the conflict) while noticing their impact on us. We can reverse this – thinking about their positive intent and our impact on them. Thanks so much for bringing this up – a great conversation!!!
Sally- I’m valuing this forum for growth and conversation with like-minded new friends and potential colleagues. Hope we continue to grow our relationships here and perhaps expand it. Your website is a visionary contribution to social media in our midst! Thank you!! Laura